I can’t even tell you how fucking lucky I felt today. In one day, Hayley was mine; she stood up for me, and took me away from my pathetic overrated family, because she’s selfless and absolutely the most incredible women I could ever be with. I was beginning to think that Paramore is my family haha, as stupid and cheesy as that sounds. Though, if I was having a problem or needed help, any one of them would do it, maybe even all at once. They were amazing people. Even Josh was starting to turn around. So, today I had zero feelings of guilt for leaving my family. Mostly because it was for Hayley.
Obviously, I was still going to live with Taylor, cause if I didn’t I’d turn into a complete girl. Yes, I did want to spend every second with Hayley… but I wondered if just moving right in together would hurt our chances, especially after being on tour together. But, tonight I wanted to stay at her house, because we still had more making out to do before tomorrow. And that is all I thought about until we got to Nashville, basically just all about her.
She had the biggest smile on her face on the plane, “I can’t believe I get to take my girlfriend on tour with me.”
“Awww yes you do! I might end up killing your ex boyfriend,” I laughed, thinking about being stuck with Josh for a month.
“Luckily, he stays in the background. So you could come everywhere with me,” she smiled again and kissed me.
I laughed, “Isn’t that a bit dangerous,” we kissed again.
She thought for a second, “Ummm yeah probably… maybe you can go with the guys sometimes…”
“That’d be for the best haha…”
There was so much sexual tension between us today; everyone on the fucking plane could probably feel it. We wanted each other, to say the least, and I couldn’t believe she felt it too. It started this morning. This morning, we realized so, so many feelings that neither of us knew we could ever feel. It was incredible. I knew resisting was the only battle now, but waiting until we were sure was important too; because once I started, I couldn’t stop.
When we got to her house, she started helping me practice guitar. I’ve been practicing their set list for 3 weeks, nearly every day, and I was getting much more confident with my talent. She never stopped complimenting or helping me, and that’s probably why I was getting good in the first place. Plus, Taylor’s help was incredible. I was also realizing, Hayley, Taylor, and Jeremy worked harder than anyone else in the band… and the four of us got along better when Josh and Zac weren’t around. It made me realize, Josh was dumping all the work on the three of them, and removing Zac from everything as well.
“Why is Josh so intent on me being in the band?”
“I have no idea… he never mentioned that. It’s weird isn’t it? At first he’s calling me suggestive names for liking you and then he just switches. He might be up to something.”
“Or he’s just changed and sees how happy we are together…”
She laughed sarcastically, “He’s way too stubborn for that,” her phone rang, “Speaking of…” Josh and Hayley talked like they were friends again, for awhile… until the tone immediately changed, and I could tell something was really really wrong. She got really angry and started yelling every name in the book at him. I didn’t have any idea of what to do, because I wanted them to sort it out, but once she started crying I had to step in.
I sat next to her on the couch and held her, “What’s wrong?!”
She hung up immediately, “He’s a fucking dickhead! He used the extra
spot we had left open for you to come on tour for his fucking girlfriend,” she started shaking, “What the fuck?!”
“What the hell? Why would he do that?”
“Because he’s selfish. The only way you could come is if you drove, and we wouldn’t even get to see each other then,” she pressed into me, “I don’t know what to do.”
“I wish I knew baby,” I kissed her head.
“I do. Fucking kick him out and let you play rhythm guitar.”
I laughed, “Can you even do that?”
“Yes I can…” she sat up, thinking.
“Hayley no… I don’t want to be Yoko, honestly.”
“You aren’t,” she grabbed my face, “We need a change, a big change. Taylor, Jeremy, and I need you in this band. You saved the band, not broke it up.”
“Do it now then,” I said before kissing her.
“In a second.” She pushed me back against the arm of the couch and straddled me, wrapping her arms around my neck, “I love you so much,” she said with her lips inches from mine.
“I love you too, so much Hayley. And, I kinda love this position we’re in…”
She laughed and pressed against me, “You’re so damn perfect.”
As I feared, we got distracted with making out instead of Hayley calling the manager and Josh. I didn’t even know what time it was. I couldn’t even remember how we got here. All I could think about was her kissing the fuck out of me. I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but I hope I can repeat it, because holy fuck this was incredible. But, I was getting worried about the turnout, what if it was too late to make any changes? What if I had to stay and be away from her like Josh said? Fuck. I knew why Hayley got distracted, one it was on purpose, and two she knew it wasn’t going to happen so easily and she wanted to utilize the time we had left together.
So I did not ruin our night together, I couldn’t. Hayley had my hips pinned down against the couch with hers, which made it fucking hard to keep any control I had left. And, the kissing started to speed up, and god only knows why. She started kissing me really hard and running her hands up and down my neck. So I started running my hands up and down her hips, pushing on them a little more every time I went down and back up. Then, her hands slid down my shoulders, chest, and stomach to the bottom of my shirt. That’s when I decided the couch wasn’t right for what’s about to happen.
I said nothing, as words could never describe how I felt at the moment, and I didn’t want to ruin the element of surprise. I wanted this to be slow, I wanted to enjoy every second, because it could be the last for a long time. Right now, I saw Hayley differently than I ever have. I saw her as my girlfriend, the woman I had to protect, the women I had to make happy, and the girl who’d do the same for me. Sex wasn’t ever a big deal to me, until I found her. Before her, love and sex had never existed together in my life; it was all fun and games for the other girls. But now, it was a need, it was fulfilling both of our needs, and even our dreams. I wanted to show her how I felt, because I was done talking. But, Hayley is NEVER done talking.
We stood in her very girly bathroom, which didn’t really catch my eye as she was looking up at me, her arms around my neck, and her face inches from mine, “I’ve never felt like this in my whole entire life,” she said, sounding serious.
“Neither have I, Hayley. Are you sure about this?”
“Not entirely. It seems kind of the wrong time. What’s going to happen if we do, and then I leave?”
I thought for a second, “Fuck.”
She backed away and turned around, “Fuck I ruined it already. I’m so sorry Riley.”
I grabbed her quickly and pulled her into me, “No. Don’t say that.
There’s a reason we need to wait, and God only knows that reason. But, I’m willing to wait as long as it takes to have you.”
She closed her eyes and leaned against me, “I’m so in love with you.”
“I’m so in love with you too Hayley,” I hugged her as tight as I could.
“I’m going to shower,” she said turning around, “I want you to come anyway.”
“Whatever you want,” I smiled, kissing her softly as we started undressing.
I tried to keep my eyes to myself, undressing as fast as I could, but since my mind knew what Hayley was doing it couldn’t ignore it. She had her back to me as she unclasped her bra, making me jealous of her own hands. Holding back was going to be harder than I thought. Her skin had a pinkish yet pale shade to it, making it look irresistibly soft. I did not know if I could handle her turning around, so I made sure she didn’t; I came up behind her and wrapped my arms around her hips, kissing her neck. Already, the feeling of her warm, soft, and bare body against me turned me on, unfortunately. I lifted her into the shower after it warmed up. I stayed behind her, and buried my head down into her neck, avoiding the beautiful sight of all of her. And, I think she was doing the same.
“This isn’t helping…” I could hear the weakness in her voice, giving me the chills.
“I agree… let’s just see what happens. Let me help you hehe,” I laughed evilly and softly kissed her neck while reaching forward and grabbing the soap.
“You want me to really help,” I asked, sliding one hand down to her waist, rubbing softly, “Fuck you’re so soft baby.”
She moaned, “Baby I need you. I can’t wait over a month,” she turned around, quickly pulling my hips against hers as we slammed into the wall.
I moaned too, “Oh fuck,” my knees got weak.
Immediately, my attention was directed down towards her body, and my knees and control seemed to get weaker. She had the most flawless, perfectly toned, and proportionate body I could ever get lucky enough to see, touch, and even taste. Everything about her was perfect and so, so beautiful. I started kissing her hard with our bodies completely pressed together, water slowly tracing down us. It felt fucking indescribable. I could feel her nipples against the bottom of my chest. I could feel her hips against mine. Her smooth legs. She started running her hands up and down my back, slowly and carefully. I slid my hands down her shoulders, down her chest, letting one rest over her left breast. She was soft and everything you’d imagine her boobs being, seriously who hasn’t thought about doing this? Every time she moaned, kissed me back, or touched me, it was a brand new feeling, and fucking incredible. Before I went farther, I had to tell her why I was doing this.
“I love you so much,” god her eyes never looked so beautiful.
“I love you too so much. Let’s go to my bed baby,” she said before kissing me, opening her mouth a little bit.
“That was fucking hot,” I said picking her up and carrying her out as I turned the shower off.
I shoved her against the wall as our kissing increased into lustily making out. Her hands tangled in my hair, her legs tangled around my body, we were about to explode. She dropped her legs and pushed out against me towards the bed. We scampered back to it and fell back as I pulled her on top of me. I immediately grabbed the inside of her thigh and started rubbing as she kept kissing me. Our bodies were still wet from the shower, but soon the water would be replaced with sweat. We sped up even more as I slid back against the pillows; she straddled me, and tucked her head into my neck as she started kissing it. Then, I slid my hand up the inside up her thigh, resting my palm on it, stretching my middle finger up to her clit. I started touching her, trying to be gentle but keep a fast pace as she wanted. She whimpered and started squirming a little bit. I enjoyed the view of her being on top of me, but for best results, I shoved her on her back and slid on top of her. I started kissing her neck all over and kept rubbing her as much as I could with my other hand pinning her hips to the bed.
Even though our actions at the moment were pretty intense, I wanted to double that towards what I really, really wanted to do to her. Now, the view of her under me was beautiful as well, but I had much more to focus on. I kept kissing her neck, listening to her breathe and whimper basically into my ear. I slid my fingers down from her clit, noticing she was absolutely soaking wet, not to mention incredibly warm. I slid them into her, and she instantly reacted with a moan and a squirm under my other hand. God it felt so good to feel that she wanted me.
“Don’t stop baby, please,” she pleaded.
“God I never want to,” I kissed to her lips.
“I don’t either. I love you, so so much.”
“I love you too so fucking much.”
We kept kissing, holding a single kiss as I started rubbing the top wall of her as gently as I could. She started moaning into my mouth as she wrapped her legs around my back. Then she started gripping the sheets and rocking her hips back and forth as she started to lose control. We were both making sounds I didn’t even know either of us would end up making tonight. It felt absolutely incredible to have her tense around me and have her pressing her entire body including her lips against mine. There’s nothing more incredible than this.
“Oh my fucking god,” she said as I slid to the slid of her and held her. She was still shaking and sweating. God she looked more beautiful than ever. “You’re amazing,” she turned on her side and kissed my chest. “But now it’s my turn,” she grinned.
“Oh god, really?”
She straddled me, “Yes really,” she whispered against my neck as she kissed it softly.
“Oh god Hayley I won’t last long.”
“That’s the point,” she slid her hand down to my waist.
In 4 hours, Hayley and I had completely worn each other out. Now we were lying on her bed, cuddling, still breathing heavily and trying to cool down. It was very frustrating and amazing at the same time, because after everything she did to me, I still wanted her. After all the touching, kissing, licking, oh god and sucking, I still managed to want us to do that all over again. I’d never felt anything like this in my whole entire life. I knew it wouldn’t go away, not with how much I loved her and how beautiful, hot, sexy, cute, evil, and gorgeous she was. And I didn’t mind it.
She laughed, “Holy fuck what happened?” She sat up, hugging the sheets.
“Yeah we kinda went animal there…”
“I didn’t know we had that in us,” I laughed, putting my shirt back on.
She pulled me back down beside her and cuddled me hard, “Why are you putting clothes back on?!?”
“I… don’t know. Haha habit I guess.”
“Well stop it,” she took my shirt back off and pulled my head against her chest. “Clothes are optional in my house,” she laughed, rubbing my back.
“God I love you,” I snuggled up to her and wrapped my arms around her waist.
She kissed my head and squeezed me, “I love you too so, so much Riley. I can’t believe I have to leave in 3 hours.”
“Yeah I can’t either. Wish I had the money to follow you guys,” I kissed her shoulder.
“Yeah. But, being around Josh and his bitch would be bad,” she laughed, “You got some practicing to do anyway.”
“I would probably kill them.”
“I probably will actually,” I kissed her forehead, “Get some sleep baby.”
I couldn’t leave Riley, yet leave her alone with an apartment and a house to watch over. I didn’t even want to leave in this first place, but touring was part of the job and the fans needed us. At least Ri understood that. But, still it wasn’t enough for me to even feel remotely comfortable leaving. I had 3 and a half hours before I had to leave, and I already knew the person who’d be perfect to hang out and take care of my girl while I’m gone. Riley was passed out, so I slid out as sneakily as I good and put her shirt on, which I would be keeping because it smelled so incredible. I didn’t care if it was like 4 in the morning, this was an emergency.
“Hayley what the hell are you doing,” Dak asked when she answered.
“I need a huge favor… my um girlfriend is going to be alone at my house and T’s apartment. I leave for tour tomorrow and she needs help.”
“Your girlfriend?! Holy shiiiiiiit! That’s amazing Hayley!”
I laughed, “I know. We’re uh in love… so I need you to look after her for me. Please please Dak?”
“Alright, I’ll be there tomorrow afternoon.”
“Thanks bitch,” I laughed before hanging up.
Now that I got that sorted, time for my limited amount of sleep for that last time with Riley. I slid in behind her and wrapped my arms around her as tight as I could. Tonight was the last night for awhile we’d be able to do this, and to be honest, I wanted to cry because of it. Being away from her would be the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I am so in love with her, and I barely even know what real love is. It’s insane, but so incredible. Hopefully, we can survive the distance and come out stronger than before. And, maybe Dak and she will get along, without making me jealous.
1 year ago - October 8, 2011
Chuck season 5 promo 2 screen cap/ Sarah Walker
oh my fucking god XD i have to watch this in front of my parents?
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Some of my favorite pictures of Lzzy Hale from Halestorm. She’s gorgeous. My favorite is the last one right now